the dreamer

grrr

i woke up on the wrong side of bed and today just feels colder than most normal days. and i want to stay upset. but i know it’s not worth it.

i know u can’t expect ppl to do the things that pleases you all the time, so sometimes friends unintentionally hurt you. and you may even go as far as asking yourself: if i were in his/her shoes would i do the same? but really, friends are just people. i mean, i’ve experienced discovering how terrible a human being could become just so that they could get what they want, so i shouldn’t be surprised anymore. in the end, everybody really just cares about themselves and we have to learn to accept that. 

tapi Allah itu sangat penyayang, He loves us with no boundaries. and this kind of love dititipkan kepada hambaNya melalui kasih-sayang between a family; mom+dad to daughter/son, love among siblings, and if we’re lucky sometimes we find true friends who feels like family too.

so here’s to my lovely sisters (you know who you are), thank you for making some days a little less painful.

somebody proposed on my tumblr.dashboard today and i realized it’s actually a good day.

ho-hum

it rains a lot lately. i noticed that it’s always drizzling on my drive home from work so i’m always wet. but it’s okay. i love the rain.

life has been a little less hectic lately so i take it as a sign that i should get started on the wedding preparations that i’ve put on hold. man, i thought i could get away with not doing anything and that things will just fall into place. just like my engagement. then i remembered; before this i have izyan. -_-“

sometimes, when i’m in the middle of a meeting or am driving someplace, i’d start remembering little little details of the wedding, you know, stuff that i should get done, phone calls that i have to make, but i can’t because i was in the middle of something else. then when i’m done with them…i forgot.

and then there are many many instances where there’ll be stuff or details that needs to be discussed with ammar and i couldn’t wait to see him, then we meet up, and then it’s not important anymore and i’d rather talk about the house, or his work, or the silly things that we do that day. and then lepas habis semua, menyesal because then i’ll remember that there’s actually a lot of important things that should really be discussed instead.

and i really, really hate discussing wedding stuff on the phone. i’d rather wait for our meeting, which, i can tell u is…um, not very often.

so there, that’s basically why i have a hard time continuing with the preparation. but i think eventually everything will just fall into place. because miracles do happen, right?

*smiles*

…

*smile falters a bit*

p/s: this is supposed to make me feel better. but it’s so not working.

who's got two thumbs and is on cloud nine?

me!!

yes. i’m done with the exams; both generic and functional. i don’t want to give any comments though because i’m afraid i’ll jinx it (i learnt this from the baby sist: kalau u say u did well, u might get bad grades) so let’s just say it was ow-kay. although technically, i still have to prepare for a presentation and there’s still one paper i have to submit in two weeks. but ohwell, the worst is over. :)

and now, i’m really looking forward to move into the new house this weekend. so i’m just gonna think about that for now. let’s look at some pretty pictures shall we?