the dreamer

on a lighter note

a few close friends told me that the last few days of preparation will be the most hectic. so as usual, i made a list of to-dos up until the big day so nothing gets left out. honestly, almost every bride has been telling me this: make a to-do list! (and it proves to come in quite handy at times) :)

i’ve also spent these last few days clearing, cleaning, scrubbing, mopping and just setting up the place for my newcomer soon. it’s kinda intimidating because i’ve been claiming ownership of this place for the past few months (and gotten quite content with the idea!) and somebody else will be sharing it soon. i think it might take a while for me to get use to all that. besides, i heard boys are really messy roommates?

bad news

i try not to make a big deal out of it and see the sunny side of what’s happened. but being me, i succumbed to my own tears especially when it’s me alone and my Creator.

i know all that about ujian being part of kasih sayang Allah to us, but as humans, we always forget this whenever something sad happens. that’s why i need to constantly seek reminders. and what yan tells me this morning really lifted my spirits up:

“rather than living a blissful life without Him, i’d rather have hardship, knowing that at the end of it all, i get to see Him.” -direct quote from skype.

so, i guess if He meant for things to go well then, alhamdulillah, good for me. but if things don’t go as planned then, it’s okay, maybe it’s for the better. because at the end of all that, i still have Him.

little girls

my mom and i have always loved the idea of having flower girls at weddings. even when my cousin asked izlin to be one of her flower girls, mama was more than happy. since my whole family are big fans of little kids (especially abah and afnan), i think it would be a perfect idea to have flower girls too.

i got inspirations to design their dresses from ouma clothing. well, something similar to these:

should be done by this week.

i’m not sure how they’ll turn out though. :s

my bliss bubble is a three-day weekend

at this point, little gestures like showing me where to get cheap plate sets, buying cute soft cottons for kurungs, girl sessions in the steam room, helping me with my flower bouquets…well, they’re just more than a girl could ever ask for.

thank you for an amazing weekend. you girls are wonderful. :’)

henna

sometimes when one thing becomes a norm or a trend, we tend to follow without much question. eventually those who choose not to follow certain norms will be deemed tidak mengikut adat.

one example is the wearing of henna. for guys. -_-“

the best thing to do when you are stuck between pleasing others because of adat and avoiding those future-moments when u have to cringe everytime u look at your husband’s finger in the wedding photo is to look at it from our beautiful religion’s perspective.

so i did a little research here.

i guess islam itu indah. :)

how i miss some things...

i love skype.

i get to discuss wedding details with yan almost every day. although, real life conversations are always better.

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bad dream

i had a bad dream last night.

and i think it’s because my brain is currently going into overdrive. i always believed that the best way to go through with this is to not make a big deal out of everything, but it’s just hard to stay calm and collected when planning something so dear and important to me. -_-“

i’m so glad for the coming weekend though.

i’ll be spending time with my lovely friends who offered to help with a little wedding project. i hope it’ll calm my nerves a little. our little gatherings are always therapeutic.

besides, dreams are just dreams.

24 days and counting. let’s think happy thoughts.